Kavyanjali

Growing up was tough not fitting into the definition of beauty nor being a joy for many eyes. When all my pretty friends were hailed with the hymns of their enchanting beauty I was weeping in the corners, feeling ugly My skin turned even darker hearing those cruel remarks for not being on the fairer side. I was the tiny eyes and crooked teeth that's how the world saw me the rest being invisible to the judging eyes.  Eventually my own eyes switched sides when even the mirror on my wall shut me out for not being the pretty one.

            

Those twinkling eyes, her love for fun that hearty laugh, revealing those missing teeth strands of mysterious grey hair, tied into a bun everything about her is so special. On her lap I would sit listening to her endless stories; exaggerated a bit still feast to my ears. My tongue still twitches to the taste of her dishes she made to please my growling stomach with all her heart, she fulfilled my quirky wishes concealed my little crimes, my ultimate savior. 

Living in a camouflage with a fake name and fame raising up a selfish mind too proud, untamed. Flying on inflated hopes forgetting the silly past Clinging on to desires in-numerous  and vast. Free falling into the ground Recovering from the 'deadly pride' with  dreams blown up going down with the tide. Killing the precious years labeling self as special reality unveiled; now just a worm in its shell. Crying a river of regrets eyes glistening with shame. In the world of equals,  now just another name.

Countless years, we spent hiding in caves crushing our will, working like slaves; with an eternal dream of being free and to roar like the endless sea. Imprisoned by those autocratic rules we choked in injustice, like fools tied within the pricking fences we dared not to take any chances. All those years spent in pain, trying in vain to remain sane; striving hard to break those chains marching through the forbidden lanes. Our hopes did bloom breaking the fear flooded tombs we fought, lacing hands in hands spilling blood throughout the lands. Now, here we stand, in the breathing sands of 'our land' Unleashing our entangled feelings- which were lost in search of its meanings. We wave our flags, high in the sky; we breathe fearless, no more we sigh. we paid a price,  just to be free butchered the power of ' I ' and it scattered to ' WE'

I keep on screaming but no one cares; bawling in the corner no one has a moment to spare Lost in their own world deaf, dumb and even blind No meets, no walks, no talks; I'd rather hit pause and rewind. It's a virtual world there's no time to stop and talk I'm stuck amidst the unfeeling robots  and it makes me choke.  I doubt if I even exist or am I just totally invisible? I wish I could befriend a human though the odds are too feeble.