Kavyanjali

Praise me for what I never did blame me for what I never said You'll regret, I am imploding with anger I'll trigger my barrel and you'll never know. You know to play with words Shouting them out loud But I don't speak 'Loser' I possess a weapon  even more powerful ; 'Silence' Mark your boundaries, tie your fences, Stay where you are and we are all good. One wrong move and it's your strike on my list And you won't even guess what I will bring down

We get one, ask for ten It’s in the human blood Never happy with what we have ‘Cos wants over satisfaction equals infinity. Compare and complain, Dream high in vain That's how we are programmed And we think life is a disaster. We like what we don’t have What we have, tops our hate lists What does satisfaction mean? Clueless; haven’t encountered it yet. Wants are endless; pointless Leaving us with shattered dreams  A little effort to find contentment Qualified as saints we become.

One mistake and now everything is at stake, I never did think such a mess it would make It was just a mistake. Now every prying eyes are set on me and the blame is bestowed upon me After all it was my mistake. I curse myself; wishing it was a dream and I blink and realize, everything's real. It can't be undone I have to carry this burden with me, till this memory dies Now I have one more thing to worry about; this mistake that I made. You learn from mistakes they say but what if I've learned enough? I keep obsessing over it sighing and weeping  For days, maybe months. I know I will regret this not the mistake I made but the days I ruined crying over it. It's time I realized it's not the end of anything it's just a mistake and everyone makes it.

The restless mind clinging on to desires can never find contentment  keeps jumping hither and tither

 The beauty embodies attired in tranquility  fluttering gracefully in the winds of ecstasy     

I fell off that cliff but I did survive; your taunts and jeers killed me but I did revive. You can keep on mocking now that you've got a chance; but I will keep on walking I've got other plans. There is a day at the end of every night so I won't let my hopes die; I fell hard on the ground but I will fly again, high in the sky. I cant blame my luck but of course you can make a joke I know I can get over this even though I am emotionally broke. I have a bright future ahead  there's no time to wail and whine; The sun has slipped deep into the sea only to rise again and shine.

  She is beautiful, she is great, I am her child it's my good fate. To describe her, for me, it's impossible my mother India, she is incredible. Wearing a beautiful crown on her head, she is lying on the vast ocean bed. The rivers from God's abode flow through her and makes her pure for ever. My mother land is the precious place on earth here great souls have taken birth. From east and west many came here but none were able to destroy her. It i s at her feet that the three oceans meet they become pure by touching her feet Her feelings inspired all a lot that's why for her, many have fought. She is my deity, she is my soul above all she is the mother of all. For me she is equal to God my love for her is pure than gold.

I fear to move on everything seems upside down I wish the time'd stand still so nothing would go against my will. I have no choice but to choose But I am afraid about what I might lose prospects of change is lame for I want everything the same. What if I made the wrong decisions and went through the worst transitions? I am afraid who I'd end up being and what I'd end up doing? But my life is how I lead it and my fate is how I read it I am the routes I take I am the choices I make.

When you call me ugly I can see the ugliness in your eyes; I can feel that drastic pride filled in your miniature size. Your words like poisoned daggers dig the deepest layers of my soul swallow the little confidence I have and let my heart burn on coal. I am tired of your cruel judgments , tired of the way you sketch my character- by the way I walk and by the way I talk; And the way you look at me with the prying eyes of a hawk. Again when you call me ugly do tell compared to what? your devilishly beautiful face? Oh please! not your stinking heart.

                                                                                                       

I fell down, down and down to the ground;   as I missed the train, to my crown it was bound  what's been taken away, I am sure will come around I'll get what I want, how crazy it might sound. I'll rise high, high and high to the sky spread my wings and soar to the heights what I wanna do is just forget to cry cause my life's to move on and not for sighs you can talk and jeer and mock and pry but my hopes wont die; but take off like kites Yeah I will rise again I got punched on my face and was pushed into a maze for worries I left no space and my dreams; I dared to chase. I am a loser ? no. I don't flow with the flow I fell once, twice, thrice..so? Its not the end of the show I'll rise high, high and high to the sky spread my wings and soar to the heights what I wanna do is just forget to cry cause my life's to move on and not for sighs you can talk and jeer and mock and pry but my hopes wont die; but

Flipping the pages of my old crumbled notebook I found those scrawny jokers embellishing my crabbed hand resurrecting old memories in my mind. We were best friends; perhaps born 'besties' "Un-goggled" nerds shouting out answers From the back bench; pushed to the corner By a fatso, engulfing two third of the area -a loner. We were the princesses of our imaginary world Where we had the perfect things and were the prettiest girls. In the real world, we'd just sit whispering,with narrowed eyes and a frown. Plotting to push our neighbour down. Piles of grave secrets stuffed in our brain We grew up, but the weirdness never waned. It was the age when our brain confided in double meaning And twenty four seven we fantasized about our prince charming. We made new friends and never did we realize that we were ending up in the opposite shores Petty fights and mistakes and misunderstandings Weakened us, piercing our hearts like s

It's like a thousand flowers bloom, mirroring the mind   Free falling into the fathomless ocean of love   Pulling the strings of soul into an enchanting song   Escaping into a beautiful world down the horizon   Heart skipping its beat, mind swaying in bliss   And words couldn't define the ecstatic feeling within   Dropping down on the knees, overwhelmed with joy   Wishing to be born a million times, just to be with him.

I stand there dumbstruck Disarmed and helpless; He’s comeback again, Alive and sound from his grave Popped out of my nightmares. In those claustrophobic corners He’s creeping in silence. I could feel his dozen eyes goggling at me But I am afraid, I can’t speak his name. And there I see him, Terrifying and horribly misshaped; Crawling along the walls Advancing towards me- With a pace faster than my eyes could follow. It’s my scream he craves. Heart pounding and veins twitching, I slam my eyes seeing those pincers. But pulling up my courage at once I encounter the monster Dropping down on knees Intertwining my fingers, I plead “have mercy on me thou oddest of creatures I am begging you 'Never darken my walls again'. "

I wish  I could  live a million years with you  and I'd still fall for you And we could write a perfect love story and they can read it for eternity Every time I see you,  my heart skips a beat And every time you look at me  I get butterflies I hope that you'll keep my heart  safe and sound and all I want you to know is  that I love you All I see is you,  my eyes open and close you own all my dreams  every day and night After all these years  and all those moments Never did I realize  I was falling for you. 'cause every time I see you,  my heart skips a beat And every time you look at me  I get butterflies I hope that you'll keep my heart  safe and sound and all I want you to know  is   that I love you Hold my hands   let's solve our crosswords be together forever  in tears and bliss 'cause every time I see you,  my heart skips a beat And every time you look at me  I get butterflies I hope that you'll keep m

Harry taught me never to leave your loved ones behind I learnt from Hermione to be fearless and one of a kind What Ginny taught was 'we can do it!’ if we've got enough nerve Fred and George showed it is to the daring that the opportunities serve I learnt from Neville to stand up for what is right Luna taught me dreaming is the greatest delight I was taught by Ron that courage is the greatest possession Charlie made me swear never to give up passion I learnt from McGonagall to be fair and just I saw in Flitwick life is charming as such Snape taught me to love unconditionally Lupin said it only matters what you're internally Lily made me realize that love could be that strong James made me think that arrogance is not always wrong I learnt from Arthur curiosity is a part of life Molly did teach me it's hard to be a mother and wife

You stood there smiling from ear to ear Greeted me with open arms Adulated with those sugar topped words My bad, I found you closest to my heart. I kept wondering what went wrong Seeing your swollen face, flushed with anger. I tried to break your excruciating silence apologized a zillion times, just to make you speak to me. As I turned my back you were out of the camouflage Stabbed me from behind, butchered my trust You made a ‘Dessert’, twisting my words And fed it to those craving ears. I confined in you and you turned out to be The ‘loudest  speaker’. When I counted on you, you were too busy Watching me fall off that cliff You poisoned my thoughts with those fangs- your words And I ended up messing everything up. I blindly believe you and that’s where I failed You interpreted my each move,  cooked up your own stories. But I was not taught ‘to hate’ And I can’t change for you And I still can’t get why I feel sorry for you.