Kavyanjali

I wanted to be your shade when the blazing rays penetrated into your flesh but I was just a bare tree weeping over my own blemish I wanted to be your sail on the thunderous stormy night but I was just a worn out fabric which set you adrift worsening your plight I wanted to be your light when in the darkness you stumbled but I was just a feeble spark even in the zephyr I trembled I wanted to be that person who you'd hold on to when you felt helpless but I was just another human uncaring, inconsiderate and hopeless

I never saw a beautiful me gleam in their eyes never watched a benevolent me beam in their words never met an obliging me strutting in their wishes and never encountered a dauntless me reigning in myself I painted them all with the brightest colours but they always found me smeared in black and white I highlighted them as glittering stars and they shaded me into a dark night sky And then I sculpted myself with their eyes judged myself through their words priced myself at their wishes and finally my self worth faded into nothingness